We wish to be certain about things. Certain about the future. Basically, we want to be happy and remain happy forever. With our limited understanding of the world, we make sense of happiness, set targets, and by the time we achieve them, the meaning of happiness has changed significantly. I recall that I once developed a hobby of collecting empty match boxes of different designs and set a target of collecting 100 different types. Wherever I went, my goal was to get that different type of matchbox. In fact, I remember purchasing a few matchboxes just to get that different type. I don't know what pleasure I derived from that. Today. I don't even remember where those match boxes have gone. I am 100% sure that all of us have had our own such targets and objects of pleasure. We are also witnesses to the fact that most of these things no longer make us happy. Yet we feel that what we crave for today will make us happy. As if we have become blind to our own history. We were very sure ...
I presented a paper on Vipassana long back at Delhi University, and at that time, a professor there asked me a question: "Who realises the temporality of the sensations when we practice Vipassana: the mind or something else?" That question stayed with me. I told him about my experience in Estonia. Once, I went on an office tour in Estonia, where it was extremely cold at around -15 degrees. I walked outdoors for quite a long time and developed severe stomach pain. With no medicines available to me and no doctor to visit, I sat in Vipassana and began observing sensations. After about an hour of observation, the pain disappeared. I told him that I don't know whether that was a realisation of the mind or something else, but the same brain that experienced pain some time back had no pain after some time. The question is who was feeling the pain and where that pain disappeared after observation. When we sit in Vipassana, our minds are full of so many thoughts. Usually, our m...