I was contemplating certain life experiences, and suddenly a thought came to my mind, "Why is it happening to me?" I entertained the thought for some time, and then chains of thoughts started. Thoughts of blaming others, and at the same time feeling guilty. The entire world seems to be such an unfair place. A feeling of running away from the world, breaking free of the same, and saying no to constant mental torture comes to mind. Then, suddenly comes a realisation that all these are just thoughts and not me. These are just like the winds and the clouds are the empty space that is "me".
The space is visible when the weather is clear. Though we may be lost in the material world even in those times, there are greater chances to see the sky. The sky is clear, and if somebody is not so occupied with home, office, or any other activity, whenever he looks at the sky, he will be able to experience the vastness of the sky. However, in times of turbulence, it is difficult to look at the sky. There are clouds, and the winds blow fast. First of all, it is difficult to stay outside, and even if we decide to step out of the home, the sky is full of clouds, and the sky is not visible. If we have experienced the vastness of the sky in the good times, we realise the vastness of the sky, even if it is covered by thick clouds and know for sure that these clouds are temporary and will move away sooner or later. They can't be permanent.
"Who am I?" is probably the most crucial understanding of life. Devoid of that understanding, living life is like living life with a blindfold on our eyes. We may be afraid of the rough weather, may blame someone for not supporting us in the rough weather, hold someone responsible for the creation of difficult circumstances in our lives, or feel guilty for not being prepared or having created the circumstances. None of these matters. The fact of the matter is that the rough weather is just a temporary phenomenon. The clouds will come and go. The winds will keep changing their speed. Yes, we will feel turbulence in the rough weather, but nothing more than that. More than that are just mental stories that our brain produces. The rough weather may trigger the emotional memories of the past disaster we faced in our lives, and we may experience extreme pain. But the fact of the matter is that the emotional memories of the past are also our own mental stories that we have preserved for a long time due to a lack of awareness of the fact, "Who am I?"
The moment we get this clarity, it's like taking the blindfold off our eyes. We have that clarity. When the blindfold was on our eyes, we fell again and again. We were blaming the table, the chair, and the sofa, which were coming in our way and making us fall again and again. Sometimes we blamed ourselves for not being aware. The fact of the matter is that while the blindfold is on our eyes, we can't be aware. It's neither our fault nor the fault of the table, sofa, and chair that come in our way and make us fall. It was because we lacked vision. Now, with the blindfold off our eyes, we can see everything clearly. The table, chair and everything else remain at their respective places, but we can easily navigate. We do not fall anymore. We see everything clearly now. The sky is full of possibilities. The space is connected. Every creation, including Mother Earth, is just like a particle of dust. "I" is the way we perceive it, which is normally just a creation of the mind. Just a mental story. The pains and pleasures are also just mental stories. We get obsessed with stories around certain sensations that we call pleasure, and that's why we feel pain of similar or greater intensity when we are deprived of these pleasures.
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