Skip to main content

Doubt and Faith

Yesterday, I was quite tired. While coming home, I met traffic jams and developed some pain in my body. I was not at all feeling good while going to bed. The morning when I get up, my body is healed and I am feeling quite fresh. Sleep is such a miracle. The body goes into healing mode while we sleep. It is such a great blessing of God. 

When we fall ill or there is pain in our body, we do not feel good. Similarly, when we face tough situations, we develop doubts. Our mind tries to find solutions that are generally beyond its reach. It gets frustrated and keeps trying different solutions. However, none of the solutions brings relief. Finally, it gets tired and closes its eyes to surrender to the divine will, and then suddenly some solution appears and works. We human beings are quite obsessed with our intelligence and try to use and overuse our intelligence to find solutions to our problems oblivious to the fact that intelligence is quite limited and most of the solutions lie beyond the domain of intelligence. However, what lies beyond the domain of intelligence is a matter of faith since we have not seen and experienced that. How the body gets well during sleep can't be understood by the intellect and that is the reason why the intellect does not believe that easily and keep trying to take one or the other medicine till it is awake.

Can intellect ever understand what lies in the domain of faith? I feel yes. However, for that to happen, it will have to remove the firewall it has built around itself. It will have to allow the free flow of grace. Probably, then it will develop the capacity to understand and appreciate how the consciousness operates. Intellect will have to break free of what it knows to enter the domain of the unknown. It's not at all easy because entering the domain of the unknown has its own dangers. Beyond the domain of intellect may be a dark night or a bright insight, which the intellect can never be sure of. 

I feel that there is a possibility of watching the play of not only the intellect but all the nine forces of nature. We may be awake while sleeping. However, that awakening can't happen on the 2D screen of intellect. We need a multidimensional screen of consciousness to witness that grand play of nature. We have to enter the theatre of consciousness to witness that play. We have quite a lot of doubts while leaving the theatre of intellect. There is a big fear of missing out and also a fear of the unknown. That is the reason why most people prefer to stay in the domain of known. If somebody dares to enter into the theatre of consciousness, probably his entire worldview will change. One can be a witness to even those dimensions of reality that are not visible in the 2D theatre of intellect. However, doubts take over when we try to leave the theatre of mind. I really do not know what inspires a person to leave the theatre of mind and enter the theatre of consciousness. May be past life karmas, a call of the divine,  remembrance of the past union with the consciousness, or grace of the divine. 


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Field of Awareness

 I presented a paper on Vipassana long back at Delhi University, and at that time, a professor there asked me a question: "Who realises the temporality of the sensations when we practice Vipassana: the mind or something else?" That question stayed with me. I told him about my experience in Estonia. Once, I went on an office tour in Estonia, where it was extremely cold at around -15 degrees. I walked outdoors for quite a long time and developed severe stomach pain. With no medicines available to me and no doctor to visit, I sat in Vipassana and began observing sensations. After about an hour of observation, the pain disappeared. I told him that I don't know whether that was a realisation of the mind or something else, but the same brain that experienced pain some time back had no pain after some time.  The question is who was feeling the pain and where that pain disappeared after observation. When we sit in Vipassana, our minds are full of so many thoughts. Usually, our m...
Post a Comment
Read more

Do we love anybody?

Are we competent to love? It seems a very strange statement in the first instance. Do we need any competence to love? Love seems so natural. But the strange thing is that most of us do not love even ourselves. Do we? What do we love? Our self-image, our beliefs, body, and ambitions. "I" am good, and the others should appreciate me for being good. "I" believe in a particular thought or religion, and consider myself to be a sum-total of these thoughts and beliefs. "I" and my body, and therefore want to protect the body and become anxious whenever there is a threat to the body or a disease that does not get cured. "I" also become happy when this body feels instinctive pleasure, such as after eating tasty food, doing shopping, travelling to a place "I" like. "I" am my ambitions and work hard to achieve my targets. What is love, on the other hand? Love is a complete merger. When there is no difference between "I" and ...
Post a Comment
Read more

Choice and Surrender

I was just listening to a talk by Sister Shivani . She says that we don't need to choose. Rather, we need to surrender, and the almighty decides for us. That's almost an impossible thing for the control freaks. How can I not choose? My choices have made me what I am. For example, I decided to do CA and write the civil services examination , and that's what defines what I am today professionally. I decided not to drink liquor, and I am proud of the fact that I am a teetotaler . I chose to read thousands of books on Neurology, Philosophy, Psychology, Quantum Physics and Mysticism . I also decided to explore Astrology and practice Vipassana . I decided to take sessions for the children. I chose my friends and people I would like to spend time with. The sum total of all these things is what I am today. How can I give away choices?  Most achievers are control freaks, and it is quite difficult for them to give up their choices. In fact, they have reached to their present positi...
Post a Comment
Read more